a harmonic connection between all living things

music. it's everything.

sometimes, i turn on a song, close my eyes and just listen. the backbeat of the drums, the thrum of the bass, the slide and burn of the guitar, the fluid movement of the piano, and the buzzy heat of the vocal all come together and you can feel in your entire body. from the tips of your fingers to the way your heart syncs in time, you can get completely lost inside it. it's like every perfect thing wrapped up and tied with a red satin bow. to me, there is nothing in the world better than that.

there's a song for everything. every mood, every feeling, every person, every situation has music, has rhythm and lyrics. it might not be obvious, but it's there in each heartbeat and every word you say. life is made up of tiny symphonies.

no matter where i go or what i'm doing, there's music. in the background (and foreground) of each moment there is melody, no matter if it's from an ipod, a computer, a radio, or from me, it's there. (i am constantly humming and singing under my breath. i have no idea i'm doing it most of the time and it drives my nearest and dearest crazy.) i don't know how to live without that constant presence around me.

the power of music amazes me. it can bring a stadium full of strangers to their feet and have them all moving together, feeling the same thing in that single moment. and it's a moment that can never be duplicated again, it's singular and free standing in time and in your memory forever. and the rush of being in that moment is so heady that you can forget to be self-conscious, you can just be.

there is really no rush like watching 15,000 people sing and scream and clap and jump in unison. and if it's that amazing from the audience, i can't possibly fathom what it must be like on the other side. to stand on a stage and know that something you wrote, that you sang, effected and moved so many people. it must be the most amazing feeling ever.

and as i watched that happen, i realized something.

i want that. i want to see that happen. not because i want the power or the fame, but i want to make people feel the way i felt last night. i want to stand in front and have people scream my own words back at me. i want to pay something back to all the music that inspired me by making my own.

wow. it's totally true. he really does save lives. hopefully someday, i'll be able to thank him in person.

on the radio: tonight, tonight - panic! at the disco, jolene - ray lamontagne, disenchanted - my chemical romance