it's a million little things

the state of the state, as it is.

school:

has started. wow, i forgot what actual, honest-to-god homework is like. there are like, books to read and due dates and things. it was a little overwhelming to realize that i have obligated myself to read books i wouldn't normally read and watching movies and thinking about them critically, rather than for pure enjoyment. that's going to take some getting used to. but overall, it'll be good for me. deadlines for school will force me to meet deadlines in real life too. procrastination is a word that will have to be banished from my vocabulary.

ink:

done.



it hurt like a motherfucker, i'm not going to lie. but i love it. and i want another one now. (addictive personality much?)

lessons of the musical kind:

lessons are...on hold temporarily. my teacher and i are attempting to work out a new schedule, but have not come to a decision yet. i need to practice more, a lot more. who knows when or if i'll even be able to play in public. but playing in private will make writing easier.

i need to get in touch with my voice teacher this week too. oh my god, if i make it through this semester without dying, i will be impressed.

super secret project:

is going v. well. better in fact, than i thought it would be at this point. there are still things that need to get ironed out. location is going to be a problem soon, since we are scattered across the country - ny, ca, ma - and can only work via e-mail. but for now, we are moving along.

there was actually a great moment yesterday. lux and i were working on something and we both went, "oh my god, this is really happening." which is both scary and exciting because we want this to work so badly.

(by nature, i am a pessimist, but i'm trying to only think about the positives these days. maybe it'll actually work this time.)

life in general:

is good. the bf's long distance love isn't so distant, but you know what they say - something gained, something lost - yeah. the boy is feeling better, sorting through his issues, just like all the rest of us. c is on a new path in life. a path that seems to leading down the same road as lux and i. so we're kind of a team, the three of us. (c is the single most motivated person i know. when she sets her mind to something, it usually happens. i'm hoping her good luck will rub off on us.) my macbook is still my favorite toy, although it is far too tempting when i should be doing other things. got tickets to a couple of shows in november that will be amazing and possibly life-changing.

on the radio: i still remember - bloc party